我讨厌现在的我。
现在的珊到底变成了什么样？
不明白为什么会变成现在的我，我以为我很了解自己，但是我错了。
以前我告诉自己我不会为了情感的事而耿耿与怀或不开心，但我错了。
原来我不是那么健强的，一之在刻意压抑自己的感情和感觉。
在别人面前的我到底是什么，只是在强颜欢笑吧了。
一但面对一个人的我就原行必露，无法再压抑自己的感情想痛哭一场。
又有谁能借我肩膀靠一靠呢？
虽然每个人都对我说同样的话，放手吧，你会找到更好的。
但我却无法做到，无法诫掉这段感情。
好难诫掉的爱情毒。
可能都是我在自作多情吧了。
人生就好像长睡，而爱，就是一场梦。
你就是我的最美的梦。
梦只是梦，永远不会成真。
I really dunno. I thought i understand myself well, but seems like i'm wrong.
I used to tell myself when it comes to feelings and love i can take it real easy but i'm wrong.
I'm not as strong as i thought i am.
Trying very hard to suppress the feelings and thoughts. But all in vain.
with frens and family, i suppress the feelings, i try to smile and luff and entertain them.
But when i'm alone i show the true colors, i wana cry with all my might.
Who can be there to lend the shoulders?
Everyone been saying the same things, give up, you can have a greener pasture.
But somehow i'm not able to control the feelings. Its hard to give up the addict.
Love is like on drug, hard to kick off.
maybe its just my one sided love.
Life is like a long sleep
and love is just a dream.
To me you are my sweetest dream.
