♥The perfectly imperfect♥

Monday, February 26, 2007

I'm sick again.
This time fever abit more serious with 39 degrees.
And tat gone my sunday gathering @ WJ hse.
I wanna go but then got fever.
Fever never subside after Jun left SK to get the cake from me.
It gone worse.
Haiz.

Maybe that's heaven will. Fated liao.
2 months since last saw him.
if i get to see him again, i dunno what to say, what to do.
Beginning to be not myself when i see him again.
I dunno what to do.
Perhaps i'm like what HP say stupid.
The guy heart is not there anymore why still bother abt it.
But sometimes just cant help it and miss ya.
Only depending on the fotos in my fone.

I'm just weak, disappointed and tired.

我恨我思念你。

Sunday, February 25, 2007

爱不爱我已经没关系
一点小伤而已
你可以很放心
我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮
都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你

我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句
我爱你

Saturday, February 24, 2007

It has been sometime since i last catch a movie.
Erm Last month. Haha.
The Last Dance by Daniel Wu and it simply sux. Or rather i dun understand the storyline.

I wanna catch Andy Lau Movie : Protege

and Fann Wong Local Movie: Just Follow Law

But seems like nobody is free to watch with me.
Is either too busy with assignment or busy dating or some dun wanna watch the movie i wanna watch. *boOo HooO*

Anyway why i wanna watch these 2 shows is because of the actor and actress.
In protege got Andy Lau and Jus Follow Law got Fann Wong.
With handsome and pretty in the show, sure attracts me. Lol..
Always like to watch Andy lau Show, will never missed it.
My last recent Andy Lau show was Battle of Wits that i watched with Tim.
The show simply rox. Its about war which i thought i will fell asleep while watching but i did not, i simply enjoy this show. Never know that war, fighting and strategy can let me enjoy this show so much.
I wanna watch these 2 movie. Any1?

Friday, February 23, 2007

I'm back to work today le. *BoOo hoOoo*
Was on leave yesterday.
I truly missed my holidays.
I missed my sleep, my bed and my TV.
Nevertheless, i managed to find some pics.

Here's something to brighten up the gurl's day.
Shall upload his photo 迎接金猪年.

吴尊最帅。。。。

CUTE

Anyway he's another typical Libran other than my ANDY LAU, TAKESHI and Louis Koo.
How come all LIBRAN all so shuai?
Next time BF must find a LIBRAN. *grinz*
Erm Ah Ee also LIBRAN leh.. but he's one of the rare cases..lols.. opps..
*evil Grinz*

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Time to upload some photos while my house PC still working.
Lucky me i managed to Online today. Phew.
But not much luck, now already 1am and only left me and tata still online talking to each other..lolz..
Ohya this new year at least managed to take some photos of my cutest guy, Jaylen.

My daddy and Jaylen

Me and Jaylen

Mummy and Jaylen with the dunno-look-where look

Sis-in-law and Jaylen again dunno look where

Brother and Jaylen

Notice something with my brother eyes?

Taking a close up

He doesnt let me take fotos of him..or was it he doesnt wanna take foto with me?

My family and my dad dunno go where

Nicely dressed up ready to go bai nian

Ohya almost forgotten about my gurls

I love u all, haiz this year again YY not ard with us. Next yr then. Btw gers pls stop ur match-making of me and YT.. haha he doesnt suit me..lolz

Alright shall end my day with the cutest, lovable, sweetest and naughtiest Boy i love

JAYLEN

Monday, February 19, 2007

Happy Chinese New Year to all.
May you all blessed with good health, good fortune..
And of course get more ang baos..

This year new year is visiting again.
Or rather relative gathering..
Always love new yr not because of ang baos, of cos ang baos is additional thing added.
However its always nice to meet up with relatives and friends. Getting to know and see how each other changes in a yr.
A sad thing is that i doesn't have cousins or nephews or niece of my age..
Always wanna to have kinda a gers talk or wad so ever.
But too bad all my cousins are older than me and nephews and niece are younger than me..

But nevertheless an extra income.lolz.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Erm the previous blog was not to say that i'm still brooding over the r/s.
Just commented my views because has read val blog..

I nvr brood abt it le.. cause i'm feeling tired.
Physically, mentally.
Tired of chasing.
really tired.
zzz

Was on leave yesterday. Slacking at home.
Oh man when will my flu fully recover?
Really feel so sick of my flu.. *ah Chooooo~*

Just saw valerie's blog about this question:
Will you still continue to love someone when he/she no longer loves you or even have another new partner?

Its always very hard to put the feelings down isnt it?
It isnt stupidity its just love.
If love can simply be put down it isnt love anymore.

Thus if it can be put down so easily does it mean that during the r/s the person has nvr really loved the partner deeply.
To me Yes indeed.

And of course there is definitely healing period. And indeed it take time.
Just like pple always say time can cure the wound but the wound can never be fully cured because it will leave a scar.
The scar will be the memories the person left behind.

Just like Ivan told me: Even thou the r/s has ended, but 10 yrs down the road the memories will still be there.
"Even the winds of separation has blew us apart, but the trails of memories u left, still lies deeply within my heart."

Yes, ultimately its the person who make the choice.
Be it Good or bad it will be his/her choice.
Most importantly do not regret on the decision made.

I totally agree with HW too:
Two parties must at least try to work the things out first.
if you never try, you never know whether it can be workable.
At least there is no regrets as already tried the best.

One shldnt have any regrets in life.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy Valentine's day!
Today is valentine's day. Another day again. Bleh..
For those who already found the one, may u two be more loving.
For those who are still singles, may the right one appear for u.
For my loved one, may u stay happy and blessed.

bet today the queue @ ROM sure is super long again.
How romantic to marry, say i do on V day.
Easy to remember.lolz.

Finally did my appraisal. Now then i know that even the slightest question ask, or even something minor ask the boss will also know. How scary.
Why does she need to bother what i ask about my own things?

I need to take a breathe. I need to get out.
Help me.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Why am i so grouchy today.
Feeling super grouchy and want to scold customer but lucky i dint..lolz
Perhaps i woke up at the wrong side of my bed, today everything doesnt seem to work smoothly for me.
Feeling sleepy, unable to concentrate well on what my customer is talking about.
Perhaps of the dream i had last night that's why wasnt sleeping much.
Weird..

Poor mummy gotta take care of the sick small baby Jaylen and the big baby Me..
I love mummy

p/s: super bad mood cum grouchy. Pls dun come irritate me, else i bite and kick.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

For quite a while i thought my tears dried up already.
But the show Turn Right Turn Left trigger my tears again.
This is the 2nd time i see this show.
But this time round it seemed more touching.
Destiny has been the one manipulating everything.
I simply teared when i saw both of them listening to the telephone machine and Gigi Leong said that even gotta wait for another 13 yrs to see him, she's happy too. At least can see him.
And the moment the both of them saw each other and hugged, i cant help crying.
Seeing this scene, i really hope to give him a biggest hug too..
*dream*

Torrent of tears racing through my eyes when i thought the day the ben's and Jerry ice cream delivered to my house.
Most memorable one.
Simply Cried myself to sleep.
1st time after so long again. It just came back. Everything.

Sometimes destiny just like to play around with us.
Last sat WJ still told me not to think of that he's giving excuse.
Frankly speaking, i never think that its an excuse, just feel that everything is not real. Fake.
It seemed near and real but now everything seemed abit far and fake.
Just like the photos and the smses i took out to take a look.
Perhaps at that point its real.

Got Once my fren ask me why my blog always like so sad?
Because by blogging is the only way i can vent my frustration out.
I doesnt wanna tell my frens abt it, even the close ones.
Because i do not want to be a want to be a weakling in front of them.
I still want to be strong and does not want them to say
"hey be like him, put it down and get it over fast. "

But in fact i'm not as strong as i thought i will be.

"Life is full of concidences. Even two Parallel lines might meet each other someday."

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I'm sick on MC again yesterday.
Throat getting worse and fever.
Haiz. New year coming and i'm sick..
Jaylen is sick too with fever and tend to make alot of noises.
Super Noisy.
We are sick cats..

I realise when a person is sick, she will tend to think alot.
Same for me. I tend to think of... and miss...
A person is sick, is more vulnerable.
Starting to miss him..

I hate myself for missing him, when he doesnt even bothered about me le..
I hate myself for getting worked up for the things that he dint do..
I hate myself for still thinking about him and the things we done before...

Shan pls wake up..
He doesnt bother about u le..
Dun have to care about it le..

But heart and mind not listening to me..

Friday, February 09, 2007

Ah Val is sick again today.
Pls take good care of ur ear and ur fever la..
I'm also falling sick again..
Super cold here in office.. and my eyes are super teary and blur..
*sense something no good*
Throat also very dry
Haiz..

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I also wanna noe the answer that adeline wanna ask.
The answer is unknown...
Anyway even noe le is there any use?
When a person change, its really very scary..
When he/she wanna turn heartless its very fast. Its just a day.
Sometimes i also dunno.. Perhaps tat's him.. haha
So ade if u wanna ask then go ahead, i bet that person wont answer u..haha

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Was on MC yesterday.
Actually i recovered but still need some rest thus decided to take MC for monday.
But who knows today my sore throat worsen, i shld have take another day of MC xia.
Had a bad sore throat and still need to answer so many calls..
Oh man its killing me slowly. *pain Super pain*
Have to speak to customer in really soft voice..

Shld have listen to DR. Kenny take 2 days MC instead.. haha
toopid kenny curse me.. ask me take 2 days MC to accompany u rite..

Ohya Finally someone noticed my color contact lens. While waitin for my printout, douglas noticed my color contact lens. So touched.. lolz..
Seldom got guys so attentive xia..lolz..

Anyway i found my oldest or rather the very 1st spectacles in my life while i'm doing my cleaning up.
Here how's it looks like

Super Or biang rite?
the very 1st spectacles when i was in primary 2.
Looks cute rite? Super big one with striking yellow.
Cool xia..
And if i wear it out, sure look super nerdy..lolz

Sunday, February 04, 2007

今天又是三号了。
有人曾经对我说爱情就好像放风筝。有的时候要学会放，有的时候要学会拉，这样它才会飞得远。如果你一直在放，风筝就会飞掉。而如果你一直拉着不放，风筝不之飞不高，线反而会断。

现在我的风筝的线以经断了，我是不是也该放手不要再追那个风筝了吗？风筝以经飞得好远好远, 我也试着一直追想要追回那个风筝。不过风筝却越飞越高越开心。
那我是不是该停下脚步不要再追了, 因为风筝是不会再飞回来了。它要去找寻它的自由。

日出后就应该试着忘了，要试着忘了他。我离不开他，风也留不住他。
远距的牵挂我还在想他, 现在好想他。

我是应该头也不回的走掉吧, 也知道伤心不能改变什么，应该祝福它。

Saturday, February 03, 2007

i'm confused.moody.tired.

Shall not think anymore..
its like an endless pit..
trying hard to hynotise myself..
but the hynotising doesnt work well..
I really dunno you..
Sometimes I feel like i dunno you..
thou we know each other quite some time, been on close terms..

I used to hope u will stay and tgt we go study..
but u told me not staying..
thus we go on a separate path..
Now u are staying, i feel like a silly goose..
I know things are always subdue to changes and factors

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Alright its my fault!
My fault for not looking aft u carefully.
Pray hard u will be alright..
Hope the bump will slowly become smaller abit..

Already gotta alot of scoldings liao pls dun scold me anymore..
Ok its my fault..

Guess this week isnt my day.
Today customer is making so pek cek..
Angry angry..
Alot of follow up to do..
argh..

SAVE ME!!!!

lastly shld i add here out of sight out of mind??

I think i'm going to fall sick soon.
Feeling frustrated today.
Listen to too many calls, feel nausea..
Vision is blur..
Hands are cold..

Think i better go to optometric shop to test my eyesight again.
Oh no.. I dun wan.. *scream*

I need a rest, lend me ur shoulder.

Oh no i nvr hit my calls target of 90 calls today.. only managed to hit 80+..
SHAG!!!