Its raining again.. making me miss you like crazy...
My leave is ending soon, pray hard time pass by s.l.o.w.l.y.
I dun feel like going back to work. But i also dun wanna stay at home either.
I tend to think alot.
I used to thought i can be strong but in fact i'm not.
after so long le i still unable to do so, unable to get the fact right.
Despite the fact pple console me and encourage me but i just cant..
Perhaps this time i really really fall into the hole. Not able to climb up anymore..
I really wanna give u a big hug like i always do. But u seemed too far for me to hug.
I wanna sms u but i'm afraid, but afraid that i'm just being a pest..
I wanna say i love u, but i cant anymore.
I wanna you to look at me again like u always do but you dun anymore.
I wanna lie on your shoulder holding your hands but your hands are always so unreachable.
I wanna feel the love and concern you always show, but i cant feel it anymore.
I know you are in pain, i'm too..
But why are we torturing ourselves?
Kinda weird.. haha..
Got once pple ask me whether to choose again would i still choose u.
My answer is still a Yes..
and what about urs?
am i very silly? i wondered.....
